It's been a while. I thought I will stop writing this blog. After that very heartbroken moment. And I'm still not over that phase yet. It's just been a few months. I'm still not okay. There is still resentment and hate and negativity. I'm just living and breathing.
You know, no matter what happens to you, time pass. It doesn't wait. It doesn't stop. You will still grow older and older everyday. The only thing that I can do is just I will keep walking and see, where will this lead.
It's not easy. I pay a huge price for that mistake. I pay with my youth. The youth that I will never get back. And I will make sure to claim the compensation on that. How? Dunno.
I un post all the past posts on this blog. Because I think I wanna start fresh. The baggage is getting heavier so I need to lose some stuffs. It's not that it's not important. The memories, they were still part of me. I am now is because who I was yesterday. But I tend to just let them be histories. Histories that only I will remember and reminisce.
Maybe I will repost back anything that is deem worthy or related but at the time being, I will just focus on the current moment.
I just finish watching kdrama Bo-ra Deborah. The story is about a writer who becomes a love coach but one day facing a heartbroken phase. I like the storyline. Maybe for some people it's boring. But, I'm a writer myself. Somehow, that's how I monolog about my world. I can relate.
Then I realize, I can't stop writing. Because writing is part of myself. This part of me that I couldn't afford to lose. I will write. And record. And reminisce. For me to remember a lifetime. So that's why I come back.
I will discover myself again. Doesn't matter how long it will took. I will just focus on myself only. And I think that's enough for the reintroduction tonight.
